i'm proud to be a january baby!

hello there. today is the last day of the month and i just get the mood to write this blog. haha. well, what can i say? there's many things happen in this month. starting with my first salary working as a part time tutor, and my driving license thing. and believe me, with less hang outs. haha, but i dont mind. the theme of my holiday is ; love urself before others. >.<

and i'm glad that i'm home on my birthday every year. there's no cake and suprises this year but i'm still thankful for what i have. the longer i stay at home, the more i know about everyone. haha, now i know that my lil bro is a funny kid actually. ha ha. i thought he is plain boring before. =.= and etc etc etc.

well, no words comes straight to my mind right now, haha. but i'll make a new post to tell u the rest of the holiday k. happy holidays peeps! ;)

sometimes i wish to be forever 18. :)

babysitting is not as EASY as Air Batu Campur.

introducing....

it was sunday and i had to spend the whole day with them. haha. at first, i thought it's gonna be fun coz it's been ages too since the last time i met alya especially. i missed her so much and i understand that she just lost her mum, my aunty. and she is so thin nowww. i dont know what they feed her after my aunty passed away. sigh. :0  farish is my little brother and anje is my cousin who i  just met since i arrived home. haha. oh, 3 of them are still 5 years old. same age but different behaviour. =.=

plus, my another cousin, Aini, 8 and my little sister, Anisya, 10 were at home too. but nvm, they are big enough to take care of themselves. lol. so, i had like 5 kids under my observation that day. my parents were away to about 2 wedding events. then, i had to do the chores like usual. =.= but that day was different. while i was busy with the dysfunctional washing machine, and sweeping the whole house at the same time, the three kids came to me and said they were hungry. and mum left the house before the lunch time, sooo nice! haha. so she didnt cook anything yet. =.= 

ok, there went the cooking. alrite, i passed. then i asked them to play at the living room so that i could continue the chores. 5 minutes later, i heard the kids cried and fought with each other. thought that they would be quiet in 5 minutes, but i was wrong, they wanted me to play together with them. coz i promised them during lunch, saying if they behaved while eating, i would play with them later. and they did it, and i had to fulfill the promise too. how strong is their memory about what i just randomly said. haha.

but i had no idea what to play with 5 year-old kids. so, i asked to just watch tv and eat the snacks. they said it was boring. and, i suggested to teach them how to read and write, but they would write shits on the wall instead on the paper. big sigh. and suddenly alya came out from my bedroom with my compact powder. i was angrily yelling at her, asking her where did she get that?! and she said from my handbag. oh girl. =.= they cried coz i used high tone. then, i said 

"ok, jom main make-up2 nak? nanti kak tonet tangkap gamba sekali? :D "

"NAKKKK. NAKKK, KITE NAK DULU."

"=.="

hahaha, i knowww, i shouldnt say this at the first place. it would cost me my cosmetic. T.T ok, now i cried. lol

but my little clients were so patient and they were so cooperative to wait for me to finish the makeovers. and it was really fun tho! i laughed when the eyebrows were too thin, the foundation sucked for their skin tone and when they cried when i put the mascara. hahahaha. and here's the result. :P

anje :P

alya XD

aini. lol

anisya. haha

and they loved it. hihihi

yeah, i had fun too tho. and my point for posting this is to tell you how hard it is to please the kids compared to adults. seriously. coz they tend to cry whenever you lie to them or when they dont get what they want. haha. and one more thing, snack is not good for their health. especially super ring. hahahah. dont feed them with extra cheezels too! lollipop is fine but it will make them ask for more. hahaha. so, to sister and brother out there, who are having holidays like me and are doing babysitting, i just wanna say, GOOD LUCK. HAHAHAHAHA. ok, peace out! :P

it's just a house :)

 "uish, ni ke rumah aku nnt. scary gile kena masuk lalu belakang." kalau kat malaysia ni, mat ganja je la lepak backstreet mcm ni. tapi aku nnt kena lalu jln ni everyday just to get into the house, scary siot. " >.<

"hmm, not bad jugak la. bilik besar. ade hallway yo. bole buat catwalk setiap kali nk g toilet ni. hahaha."

"aiseh, ambulances paleng bising kat luar. and Malborough Hotel pon tanak kalah. every night ade org drunk sampai gaduh2 ke tgh jalan. epic gile. ahhh cmne nk study dgn aman ni" >.<

"alamak, ade jadual masak. bole ke aku masak sedap2 untuk diorang ni. setakat telur goreng tu pass la. kalau nak masak nasi tomato, nangis jugak la nnt. hmmm, baek aku tanye mak kalau nk masak ape2 yg best. what? mesra.net ade bagitau resepi? yezzza. i will survive then! peace "

After a year...

"ahhhhh stress nye shower curtain ni asyik nk jatuh je setiap kali mandi. kalau mandi sopan tape gak. naseb baek so far tade drama kat toilet lagi. hihi "

"weh2, kat luar ade orang gaduh. jom2 tengok. mak ai, pompuan tu baling heels die kat laki tu sampai kepale die berdarah. polis x buat kerja ke malam weekend ni. "

"hahaha, berderet2 kotak cereal kat dapur. everyday after makan nasi mesti makan cereal. ni semua sbb nestle's honey crunch corn flakes! :D"

"jom celebrate birthday die kat rumah kite nak? :D bole beli barang birthday kat Newtown variety. hehe. pastu beli cake sara lee kat Franklin. hoho. aku ingat nk cari hadiah kat Octopus la. aku tau die kompem suke hadiah tu. hihihi"

"hish nak exam ni, x bole la main fb. aku nk deactivate la kejap. weh, jom main office nak kat living hall nak? hihi. bawak la barang kerja kau sekali, :P "

To the second year..

"ok, tukar roomate. hope everything will be alright later on. :) "

" newtown ade byk kedai baru laaaa. jom jalan2 newtown. sambil makan ice cream. om nom nom nom :P"

"yahoo! fridge baru! fridge besarr. and microwave tooo. hehehe. they complete me. tapi tv da rosak laaa. x dapat tgk the simpsons and neighbours cmni. hahaha"

" it's been decided. we have to split. i have to let go everything. huhu, kena house hunting segera!. but end up, semua duduk sini lagi. hahaha. epic fail. "

OMAIGOD. HOW I MISS THOSE DAYS AS GLORIA JEANS GIRL. 

I MISS THE PEOPLE IN IT AND I MISS WHAT HAPPENED IN IT. 

I MISS THE SURROUNDINGS, THE HECTIC SHOPS OUTSIDE AND YES, I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT HOUSE...SERIOUSLY. :( TILL WE MEET AGAIN, WHICH IS 'NEVER'... I'LL ALWAYS VISIT THE OLD PLACE LATER. ...XX

p/s : BUT IT'S JUST A HOUSE ANYWAYS. AND I HAVE TO MOVE ON TOO. :)

the backstreet. :)

the backdoor. no, the only door. haha

the people in it. 

the partayyy :P

gloria i misss youuu! >.<

reconstructing everything in me

i love holidays. coz i love writing some craps during holidays. lol yeahh. and usually the ideas come when i'm all alone and the emotions are fucked up with the moods. hell. this sounds like PMS. hahaha. nahh, nothing to do with PMS, this is just my shoutout.

well, i feel weird at the mo. everything is changing now. what i meant by everything is, my surroundings and how i manage to handle those situations. mostly involving the friends, the new place, the old place and the workplace. the relationship? well not that far i think. oh one more, the family. phew. 

at this age, i should have been exposed to many hard situations so that i would learn from mistakes and had the experience. so in the future, this thing will bear in my mind and i will be a very great adult. yeah.lol. u know what, i think those typical hard things are just bullshit sometimes. haha. i didnt deny it but i'd rather analyse the  reasons than just let it happens coz when it come to mistakes, people start to fingerpoint and being temporarily insane. there comes the 'sorry' and everything is fine. ha ha. funny and that is how ppl say, way of life. F.

no, i'm not angry at anyone or anything right now, hell, why should i have those feelings yeah? i'm good. and thanks to the friends who know me well and let me be myself to handle my own anger. i admit that i can be deeply emotional into something and ignorant at best. but honestly, this is so messed up. one by one it comes and goes. and leave me untitled. my expresion was like (+-+). maybe i was just tired. yeah i think. 

yes, i do think things too much sometimes, but what i think is not to complicate things, but to know the possibilities of things. possibility of what will happen next and when the truth should be revealed. hahaha. wow, i dont know that brain is so powerful and sexy, it controls every single thing i do and say yo.so, blame the brainn. (lame) lol 

i guess that's enough for this post, i believe u dont even understand the complex codes i was saying.lol. well, the title says it all. i am reconstructing myself. it's just me. and the codes almost finish. i better stop before i mess up everything again. hahaha. peace out! 

p/s: i should do this more often. it feels so good when u can write watever crossing your mind, and it even feels great when it's just u who understand it all :P  

Syawal and what it meant to me

alhamdullilah, i passed my ramadhan successfully. with a few days off due to 'you-know-what' reason, i survived this year's ramadhan. and now da raya da pon. :D

this year i celebrated my Eid in Adelaide with my former college friends. yeah, it's been a long time since last time i met them especially aween, picka, fizi, arep and safwan. mmg best sgt jumpe dorang and kitorang dpt layanan VIP sepanjang percutian kat adelaide. haha. tapi syaza x dpt join pulak sbb die terlepas flight. isk3.

and to be honest, this year punye raye feeling sgt mcm kat malaysia. especially the solat sunat hari raye ramai2 dekat masjid. well, this is my first time perform solat sunat hari raye. so i am so thankful that finally i did it. not that i didnt have the chance to do that back then, it's just i dont know, maybe aku je kot tak ikut family aku pegi masjid. huhu

sbb x kenal anyone else besides them in adelaide, and kitorang pon first time dtg adelaide,s o dorang pon ajak la kitorang jalan2 but not jln raya. but jalan kat morielta conservation park. at first i was like, oh lord. i'm wearing my nine west! and kebaya. how could i possibly hike the mountain and do the jungle trekking? :0 feeling diva sgttt. haha. but the whole of it, it was reallly fun and subhanallah, adelaide sumpah cantek. :)

and that night we are having sort of gathering barbeque at arep's place. haha, time ni la sume nk pakat gossip about future la, past times la present la. haha. thanks to them sbb prepare everything for us sume2 la. x tolong langsung oh barbeque tu. dtg, then duduk mcm mak datin and makan je. hoho.

but i went there for 3 days je, so tade la byk sgt activity nk buat. kate pon dtg nk raye je kan, so dtg raye je la. alhamdullilah, besides adelaide, i have the chance to ask for forgiveness from my family, friends and even yg x friends pon. :) and personally i am so happy at the moment.

p/s: comeback of a special friend is always the best thing. (iklan) hahaha