reconstructing everything in me

i love holidays. coz i love writing some craps during holidays. lol yeahh. and usually the ideas come when i'm all alone and the emotions are fucked up with the moods. hell. this sounds like PMS. hahaha. nahh, nothing to do with PMS, this is just my shoutout.

well, i feel weird at the mo. everything is changing now. what i meant by everything is, my surroundings and how i manage to handle those situations. mostly involving the friends, the new place, the old place and the workplace. the relationship? well not that far i think. oh one more, the family. phew. 

at this age, i should have been exposed to many hard situations so that i would learn from mistakes and had the experience. so in the future, this thing will bear in my mind and i will be a very great adult. yeah.lol. u know what, i think those typical hard things are just bullshit sometimes. haha. i didnt deny it but i'd rather analyse the  reasons than just let it happens coz when it come to mistakes, people start to fingerpoint and being temporarily insane. there comes the 'sorry' and everything is fine. ha ha. funny and that is how ppl say, way of life. F.

no, i'm not angry at anyone or anything right now, hell, why should i have those feelings yeah? i'm good. and thanks to the friends who know me well and let me be myself to handle my own anger. i admit that i can be deeply emotional into something and ignorant at best. but honestly, this is so messed up. one by one it comes and goes. and leave me untitled. my expresion was like (+-+). maybe i was just tired. yeah i think. 

yes, i do think things too much sometimes, but what i think is not to complicate things, but to know the possibilities of things. possibility of what will happen next and when the truth should be revealed. hahaha. wow, i dont know that brain is so powerful and sexy, it controls every single thing i do and say yo.so, blame the brainn. (lame) lol 

i guess that's enough for this post, i believe u dont even understand the complex codes i was saying.lol. well, the title says it all. i am reconstructing myself. it's just me. and the codes almost finish. i better stop before i mess up everything again. hahaha. peace out! 

p/s: i should do this more often. it feels so good when u can write watever crossing your mind, and it even feels great when it's just u who understand it all :P